She's baaaack......

Well. Sorry about that. I had an unexpected, unplanned, undesirable fall off the wagon. I'd like to thank you all for your calls and letters, the flowers, the support. I apologize for not being here to amuse and motivate you. I haven't run for a couple of weeks, and it seems that if I am not running, I can't blog (even though I have a backlog of runs to write about). The children were sick. I was sick. And then, (the horror) I was unmotivated. I just didn't feel like it. The thought of running was as appealing as the thought of eating my own snot. And I had lots of it.

So what did I do with my lack of motivation? I wallowed in it. I felt sorry for myself about how hard it is to find the time to go running. I wondered why I ever thought I would be able to stick this out, given my historic lack of attention span. I learned more about how to eat around the chocolate/coke/cookie moratorium. For example, did you know that gummy bears contain no chocolate, bear no resemblance to cookies, and are not drinkable?

And I lost weight. CAN YOU FUCKING BELIEVE THAT? I lost weight. I finally fell under the 160 mark, a number I have not seen since I was on the way up the dial. Which means early university, probably. Good thing I don't live by the scale, because I would be done with this exercising thing. As it is, I am reasonable enough to understand that it is probably a loss of muscle that caused the weight loss. And that it isn't relevant - it is more healthy to exercise than not to exercise. But somehow, that just doesn't seem - right.

Anyway, I ran yesterday. It was good. Someday I hope to blog about it. For now, I shall go and have a caffeine free Diet Coke, munch a few carrots, and plan my next run. Thanks for coming back, and I hope to see you again.