The chocolate ban

Here is this week's list:

• FV Cappuccino


• 2 butter tarts


• peanut brittle (3 pieces)


• 3 pieces (small) carrot cake


• 2 pieces coconut pie

So did you notice that the list is much shorter this week? And there is only one week left in the chocolate/coke/cookie ban. Obviously there has been a positive effect from the ban, but I still crave all of them a lot. Not the Coke, since I have simply replaced that with Caffeine Free Diet Coke (which, although not ideal, as Tony says is probably not a bad vice as vices go), but the chocolate and cookies. And just sugar in general.

I thought that once I blocked myself from eating those things, the cravings would die down. And they are less. But no where near gone. I am worried that once the ban is lifted, I will just go back to eating whatever I want. I really want to go sugar free for a week, and see if that helps, but I am afraid. Of failure. And of intense cravings. And of beating someone up because of the intense cravings. I actually told myself that the last week of the ban, I would drop all sugar. But I didn't plan on the last week coinciding with PMS. So I am weak, and I can't do it. Maybe next week.